Agonal Breathing-Mechanism of Death CS

i have contemplated my own death ever since i was maybe 14. there were times when the suicidal ideations were much worse, but other times, just there would be the passing thought that i could easily end my life by walking into traffic or finding my father's gun or driving into a boulder at speed or drinking myself death . there must be some pathology in me that lead me towards atrax morgue, premature ejaculation, brighter death now. so much of those sounds are called 'post-mortem' but i don't buy it . i am never concerned with what happens to me afterwards, rather i'm just wanting to rid myself of this existence. so these artists sound to me like what i would experience before i die, before i want to die, before i choose not to die. there is comfort there. i know that sounds fucked. but that's the truth, or at least that's my truth . bleak, still, unmoving sounds . cold, black noise. emotions in extremis . nowadays, a lot of this is pop music to my ears. and i want more.

to me, agonal breathing is one of the only artists who truly can embrace the 'post-mortem' perspective, the 'post-mortem' sound . she works with dead bodies, she cares for them, she prepares them for what happens to the body after death and whatever fate comes next . cremation, burial, medical donation, etc. i honestly don't know what she does as a mortician . but i know how she makes me feel through her music. the heavy industrial tones linger in her work. clipped dialogue that may have actually originated from a mortuary, her mortuary. it's as bleak as i want it to be, it honors that horror about death, it treats the dead with respect, and she never provides any answers . we won't know until we know . my only wish is to sink into these sounds forever. is that heaven?

(Text by ester kärkkäinen)

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AVAILABLE 8/14/25